No, I Did Not Die.

14 Feb

I’m not dead.

I do, however, have a new job. Another dog. A husband. And two daughters. (But no stretch marks. I didn’t birth ’em.) Long time no chat, eh?

I often wonder what happened in someone’s life when they stop blogging. (Like did they for real die? I could’ve sent flowers had I known.) In my case, I entered a “blue period” – I loathed my job (Well, if I’m going to keep in real up in here, I have to correct that. It wasn’t so much the job as it was “the management.”) so much that it sort of (or did) turn me into a Negative Nancy/Debbie Downer. And who wants to be around one of those? Trust me, you didn’t want to be around me. I didn’t even want to be around me. I’m pretty sure my dog put himself in the classifieds.

So, since I needed a new job, I had to start applying and interviewing for ’em. Times being what they are, I figured most people would Google me upon receipt of the ole resume – and finding this blog might lead them to think that I was somewhat of a liability. Especially those uber cautious politicians. They can screw up every other minute, but their staff can not. (If they do, they aren’t staff for very long.)

At any rate, I made this blog private (and allowed access to only those who asked for it) in an attempt to combat that. Once I did, however, I didn’t feel like writing on it. For some reason, knowing who was reading really inhibited me. The very reason I like to blog is that I don’t know who reads what I write or even if they like it – something you don’t get from posts on Facebook or Twitter. I like that people can anonymously troll through and don’t have to “have permission” to see it. I loved it when I’d meet someone who would say they had been reading my blog for a few months because a friend of theirs recommended it. I guess you could say that’s what drove me to post almost every day. Not wanting to disappoint someone who used it as a break in their day.

Making the blog private limited the amount of users I could “allow” to see it. At the time, I didn’t have the time or energy to move this blog to another site that didn’t limit users. So, I would type a post and delete it – always thinking to myself, “What will so-and-so think of this post?” It turns out that my give-a-damn-what-people-think isn’t so busted when I know who’s reading.

Cut to present day. I have a wonderful job with the coolest people on the planet. They are creative geniuses, those people. I started working there in October, and time certainly flies when you’re having fun. It seems like my first day was yesterday.

There have been a few other changes in my life since I last posted, so I’ll bring you up to speed on all that jazz in the next post. You won’t want to miss it because it involves a stripper…and a bear.

Ok, it doesn’t involve a stripper and a bear, but I had to say something to make you come back.

9 Responses to “No, I Did Not Die.”

  1. Meigs February 14, 2012 at 7:31 pm #

    I missed you!!

  2. Grace Inman February 14, 2012 at 9:21 pm #

    MISSED YOU SO MUCH. so glad I can get my Mandi fix now 🙂

  3. Amy Jones February 15, 2012 at 12:27 am #

    Ok what? Please feel me in friend. Miss knowing what's going on in your life!

  4. Chuck February 15, 2012 at 10:51 pm #

    So happy for you and glad to "see" you again!!

  5. The Tightrope February 16, 2012 at 3:00 am #

    It's so nice to be missed! Thanks, y'all!

  6. charles Apple February 16, 2012 at 7:08 am #

    Thanks for resuming your blog, Mandi. I really enjoy your writing. And thanks for unblocking me.

  7. The Tightrope February 16, 2012 at 9:26 pm #

    Charles,Blogger limited to me to 70 people who could "see" a private blog. As you can tell, you didn't miss much. Private parties are no fun, so I decided to hell with it – it's public again. :)Hope you are doing well!-M

  8. April February 19, 2012 at 9:35 pm #

    Welcome back! I've been missing me some Tightrope!

  9. MaL[*]Lee March 8, 2012 at 12:44 pm #

    Soooooo glad you are back!!

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